Wow, it's been some time since I've last posted. All attempts to change this blog basiclly have follow through it seems. Oh well. Real life just keeps getting in the way. Damn you real life.

Well my first semester of graduate school is almost over and I have to say I feel pretty good about it. In the three classes I'm talking I'm pulling all A's at the moment and you gotta be happy about that. Though not working is depressing me. My goal has been set though. While I'm taking a summer course, trying to see if I can work in another one, I want and do plan to start working before the summer is out or the fall. By the summer I should be half way through my master's program. Mother wants me to not work at all until I finish my Masters but I HATE being at home during the day, not working and using the skills and knowledge I gained while in college. That's what's really getting to me. I feel so worthless and that the last few years was a waste since I'm not taking advantage of it. I did the first semester of grad school cause I'm using their car for the most part. Being in an area where there are no trains, buses or cabs makes it hard to just go out and work. If I piss her off badly (which is a fear I have in this situation) I could lose my mode of transportation that I currently have, her mood swings make this a real fear for me at the moment to be honest since I wouldn't worry about this one day and the next it could be a possibilty. Hate this feeling, makes me feel like such a child to be this dependent.

So work has to come pretty soon which leads to the next thing on the list that has to be taken care of right away.

I've been using my parents SUV (gas prices are criminal), father mainly using the other card, and I don't really want to keep using that and riding it down. So with luck, once I make my resume viewable on Monster.com and Careerbuilder.com (still have to put it on there), I'll be able to get some interviews (will still send out my resume by mail though). I have nothing against entry-level positions, everyone has to start somewhere but considering my field and degree pay shouldn't be to bad. Once I get a place of employment, the first order of business will be to take a trip to a car dealership to lease a car. I want no trouble in that department. Since I'll be living at home for a bit longer until I can save up money to get my own place (kinda hard living in my area since it's so rural and everyone either owns houses or rents them and not sure what the prices on apartments are like in the near cities, though they can't be anywhere near New York City prices so trying not to look for a job there). Hopefully I can find something close to the place where I end up working, even if I have to room with someone or get a place that is pretty small. I'd be okay with that.

Just have to make sure that the job and car situation is taken care of then I'll be ready for anything.

Second order will be to finally start looking for someone. This is something I've purposely put off as I didn't have a job. It made no sense to try and start a relationship in my current position. Hopefully that will change.

AH life, why does it have to be so troubling. If we still lived in the city, or at least a less wooded area, I'm sure I wouldn't be having these troubles.