Thank god for understanding people. I was able to drop calculus after talking with the Dean of Student Life and a consular. It'll appear as a W for a medical withdraw from the class. This takes away a lot of stress let me tell you.

I showed my first movie for my scholar's project. A rather small turn out; two guys, my advisor, and my RA Alison ;). We had a good time and a small discussion afterward. Looks like I'm going to have a problem with one of the guys in the campus center saying that I need to pay to get the copyrights to show the movie. Bah I say as does my advisor. Now when I advertise I have to check to see that they aren't taking done my flyers which they did the day they emailed me. Looks like I'll be making several copies then. Nov 19th is when I'll be showing Spirited Away. I wish I had gotten their emails since I can't remember the names of the guys that came. :(. With luck they'll show up again if they see the flyers in time or I'll see them around campus.

Since the school network has been acting up I've had some free time to think about things. With all the things happening in my life I think I need to lessen some things. One of those would be Robotech. I've stopped going to the forums some time ago(Robotech.com forums) but I think I'm going to stop going to the chat as well, well at least limit my time there. The more I think about Robotech and Harmony Gold the more upset I become, especially with the way things are run and how they interact with the fanbase and retailers. There is plenty of shady things going on, trust me on this. Some of these things are recent and others have just built up over the years and months.

I will miss chatting with all my friends like ZorPrimal, rtsurfer, Mir!!!, Ferr, Randy, Goldy, AV and plenty of others but a break is needed. I've noticed over the past few months that I really didn't like Robotech as much as I used to. Macross has taken its place and what really kept me coming back were the people above and others.

Then there is the situation with my academices, mother's illness, and other things. I just need to cut out some stress in my life. I'm still going to try and make it out there for the Anime Expo in 2004. I'd love to meet other Robotech fans in person, especially Miriya, and others.

If anyone sees this, be sure to leave me shout and remember I'm not forgetting about anyone. I'm still visiting different forums such as RDF-HQ, Macross World Forums and Twin Moons Forums where I mod at and Anime Nation. There are others as well. I'll be sure to check Mir's blog everyday as usual :). While I continue to blog myself. :)

$43 dollars is what I spent on book today. I wish I had checked out the prices before heading back to school. In a span of two days I'm down $90 just like that. *sigh* In other news I really hope the network is fixed soon. I miss talking with everyone in the Robotech.com chat. The port for that, along with AIM and other things are closed cause around 6 people brought back viruses on their computer from break. They started hitting the network so everything had to be shut down and cleaned. Only the interent is back up, which is port 80.

I'll be showing my first scholar's project movie this wednesday. Wish me luck :) I'm showing Cowboy Bebop the movie. I'm not expecting a large turn out, it will most likely be me and the advisor and a few other people if I'm lucky. Ah the things I do to maintain a single room. hehe

While I really like blogging sometimes its hard to come up with things to say on a daily basis. Take now for example. Nothing really interesting has happen, though I'm home for a small break. I'm heading back to school wednesday morning. I'm finally dropping calculus but before I do that I'm going to see a consular. After thinking over the situation and talking with my parents it seems that the death of my grandfather(father's side) at the very beginning of the semester could have affected more then I thought. It did screw up my concentration and I need to work really hard on math. Something to that degree would have an serious affect on my studying. So depending on how my session goes I'll have the class dropped and it won't count in my GPA. If things don't go well I'll still withdraw but I'll get the F, something I don't want to happen. I hope everything goes well, not like I have to lie or anything. Just open up and tell the guy how I'm really feeling. Not really used to doing that with anyone. But I guess with the doctor/patient agreement things won't get out, though the Dean of Student Life has to be told some things in order to make a decision..

*Sigh* I don't know. Lately I'm getting tired of just about everything, life it self for some reason.

This is a short blog today. Nothing really of interest to talk about other then I'm looking forward to this small break coming up. I have monday and tuesday off next week which is nice.

Interesting bit of news though. China placed its first astronaut Yang Liwei is in orbit today. Here I so wish I could go into orbit. Maybe if I had several million dollars to pay the Russian space program I could. Anyone want to donate? ^_^ hehe

Xbox!!! That's the theme, well one of the themes of this latest blog. After putting it off for so long I finally picked one up and I don't regret it at all. I only have Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic but I"m loving every moment. There are several other games I want to pick up but in due time. No need to rush things.

As for my calculus problem, well I had a chance to talk with my parents about it when I went home this weekend. We all agreed that I would sign up for a summer course at one of the local colleges. During the time before that I'd study and try to learn as much as possible in the mean time. So that means I'll be dropping, well withdrawing from the class this week. I want to see if I can have the entire thing erased from my record though. Which means having it so that I only have 12 credits instead of 16 attempted. I will be taking a 7 week course in order to make up ones I'm losing though. *sigh*(taking a number out Mir's book, hehe). This is really depressing. I hate feeling like a failure but I have no choice but to do this. There is no way I can get my grade up and even if I did I need a C- in order for the class to count so I'd have to take it over anyway. *sigh*

On another bright note though, well semi-bright. If I do take the course, depending where I go I might or might not be able to make Anime Expo. If I do make it I'd have to attend class as soon as I get back. Still a little ways off though. Also my mom told me that she and my dad are taking my sister (Cherrell, 4 years younger then me) to Disneyland at the end of Aug. Great news. She's wanted to take us for some time now and now my folks are in the position to take us. You're never told old. hehe

Like everyone else I dislike Mondays. It means the start of another long week and the end of the weekend. Nothing much to talk about today. Well I did get a new printer. A 3 in 1(scanner, copier, and printer). Now I just need to find a place to set it up. I'm still waiting for the rest of Mir's story but it will come in time. I know what a pain writers block can be but I'm sure it will be great. The link to her blog is on the right but he it is again. Dim Sum Diaries. Enjoy.

I am so tried of this shit. I study my ass off and still nothing works. I took my calculus test and I know for a fact that I failed it, I'm sure the grade is pretty low as well. :( Right now I just feel awful. I'm doing well in all of my other classes but this one. The class(Calculus) just makes me feel dumb when I know for a fact I'm not. Far from that. Oh well I'm going to enjoy my weekend and try to forget about that till monday morning when I get the test back, see the teachers note, and attempt to get more help.

On the plus side my dad is suppose to be coming up this weekend. :) And there is a comedy show tonight so I might try to make. I've never heard of the two guys before but the SAC(I'm apart of) wouldn' t have picked them if they weren't good.

It's a time for joy and a time for saddness. Its almost the weekend but before I can enjoy I have to take a dreaded calculus test. Oh I can almost hear the ominous music in the background. I don't mind taking test but when it comes to math my brain just shuts down. I've struggled for the past few years once I got into algebra. It's not for my lack of studying to be honest. I'm just glad this will be the last math class I ever take. Now I just have to get a C- to make sure of that.